Hours n hours


Burning midnight oil, trying my best to open my eyes for as long as possible.
Writing lesson plan for 1 month for 3 group of ages in one night is a real challenge to me. Too focus on it until my mind almost not functioning so i decided to blog.
A cup of honey lemon from my dad makes my heart melts. He's so proud of his own 'production' and cant wait for praises=)) dad u r so cute n sweet=)
Planning these lessons makes me think of terry soo again. There's once we were playing see-saw together and i was trying to make the see-saw goes higher. N he was like so angry,staring at me saying : 不.要.摇.酱.大.力,等.一.下.我.pei.掉! I was giggling there n he stared at me like i'm a bad teacher. Thinking of him really makes me smile from the bottom of my heart.=))
Anyway, hope i will be able to pass up on time tomorrow. Or else i'm going to act sick tomorrow.




Blue monday

Another week begins, i arrived my workplace with my heavy mind.
It's heavy because there's too many things to really think about inside my small brain. N feels like it's leaking already.
I tried my best to continue my lessons till lunch time n i dragged myself to the canteen. Worse comes to worst, today's my turn to bath them. argh i dont have that strength already=(

And this last little boy came in to the bathroom. n he saw there's some scars on my leg while i was applying some shampoo over his head. n he told me: '老师,你的脚痛痛做么要帮我们洗澡?这边好像很痛叻.' and he tried to avoid my leg from getting wet. I felt like hugging him tightly at that moment n he reminds me of the pureness of a child. Somehow he made my feel secured to be there too. Thanks to this cute little kid, Terry Soo who loves mermaid, cinderella, pink n purple, flowers and ribbons.=)


hey dinner!

Comes to sunday night, have to eat alone again.
Dad's too busy doing his own thing, mom's having dinner with her friends.
I rather eat alone if i have to join those aunties, probably i will be stoning there until they wanna leave the restaurant which is few HOURS later after we finished our food.
Friends? They have their own dinner night with their families.

Then this is when i think that having a boyfriend is essential.
I know that's bad. Bt at least there's someone who's there for me to contact whether he wanna join me 4 dinner or not without any special reason. And at least he's there.
Anyway, this is just my imagination=) i know involving in a relationship is not that simple as i wrote here. So that's no point rushing to get a boyfriend just to fill my loneliness.

So for tonight, i'm having deli wings, mushroom soup, coke and hawaiian pn pizza from pizza delivery. I think that's enough=).


April, April fool.





I hope it's always just an april fool
during unpleasant moments in my life.



Early in the morning.

What a early sunday morning=)
i cant get into sleep anymore since i wake up at 7 everyday. I'm wondering since when i became so healthy.
Lying on the bed waiting for the time to pass isnt easy actually. So i decided to read some blogs.
Then i realised i'm a self-centered person(short form-selfish).

All this while i didnt even try to check out how's my friend is doing over there or friends who are just around me. I would say i'm too busy bt this is just my excuse of being lazy to care about others. It's like i never appreciate things that i had in my life. I will only concern about their lives during my sad or emo moments, times which i need them the most. This is just betraying the true meaning of friendship. And i know it will not turn out well in the end.

I wouldn't promise i will be able to keep in touch with everyone of them everyday bt definitely i will make sure that there's still them in my heart n actions will be taken to make our friendships last longer and longer and longer.



After a drink=)

Always have the feeling of blogging here after having a drink from starbucks:)
Yea such a long time this blog havent been updated,i'm too busy i guess or i dont even want to spare my time out for blogging nowadays.Btw there's something i just wanna express it out about my teaching life.

I'm working with children for about 2 months and i admit that i'm still enjoy teaching those kids:) It maybe quite tough to plan the lessons for different ages of kids and experiments need to be carried out again n again( in terms of the success way of teaching them so that they know what i want them to absorb) I know that attractive lessons are essential for them where they can release their energies by moving around but it acquires more preparation for me before every lessons. I admit that this is not easy for me to plan because they can get bored really easily. Their concentrations are low therefore i love to teach 5 years old rather than the younger ones like 3 or 4. I dont really enjoy teaching 6 yrs old because they are far too naughty n being soft to them dont seem to be effective. I hate shouting at them like a mad teacher and they dont know what the teacher's doing. Initially i thought teaching kids really tough job because the works are just too messy and i dont know what to start with. There's alot we need to teach them and the pressure from the parents is the part that i suffered. I think i'm just too young looking to tell their parents how their children behave or make them trust on me. And i cant focus on every child when i'm teaching so i started to feel terrified when their parents came to pick up their children. I think it will be worst when it comes to parent-teacher day:(

Anyway i will try to observe my children and i found that as the time passes, i really feel that that's a need to help those 'stubborn kids' to be well-behaved. It's a long process and it's not easy i know. Bt that's the reason why i'm teaching i guess. So hope there's some changes before n after i taught them the right way n i hope there's changes in me as well. I told them what's the do's and dont's n i need to make sure that i'm doing it as well. emm i hope i'm able to cope with those obstacles. god bless me pls:)

P/s: i know it's quite boring to read this so u can skip it if u want=) it's just sth that comes to my mind at this moment:)

很累了


我不想入睡,
我不想一睡到天亮,
我不想明早睁开眼,
又要面对这一切。

我觉得全部事情,
到头来,
还是只剩自己独自来面对。
顺其自然么?
要熬过这段时期,
已是翩体灵伤了。


不 ,开 ,心



你,
跟我过来,
跟我说说话,
我很想你在这里。

有时我就是想保持沉默,
有时我就是不想对着你 假笑,
但事情不是那么简单的。
我没有很轻松的在做事情,
做什么事情都好,
我都是战战兢兢的,
深怕我做得不妥当。

我觉得我已经很努力了。

我已不是我了,
我走不出来,
我不想留在这里。

我好久没有真心的大笑了。