Fear

Ok, now i realised that i was stalking just now.

yea i'm a stalker , stalking for old relationship.

glad to see them live lives to the fullest, enjoying times together :)

But nothing seems to change here, i'm still the same ;)

but to be honest, there's some bitter feelings in me

even though i refused to admit that.

bitter as in feeling regretful =x

i know that's nothing to be sad or wondering why,

but i think it's just that i'm lonely sometimes,

just sometimes, luckily :)

Btw, wana share something i really think it's my biggest fear,

and sorry tummy,

i allowed too many butterflies in you.

Exam starts from tomorrow.

=(

Bites

a can of antioxidant lipton ice tea

My econs book

Four pair of Deli wings

A personal hawaiian pan pizza

Sounds not bad?

But it feels bad eating alone.

But once in a while is ok laa.

=)

2.oo, am

Jing Nie is still thinking what can she do now

besides than sleeping, studying and staring the bed.

*O.o*

1.oo, am

I guess i started to miss my friends..

including the one i shouldnt miss.

Just came back from a wedding dinner,

i never like the environment during most of the wedding dinners

I thought the meanings are gone.

It's not just about wishing the newlywed,

but comparing among each other that makes me sick.

But overall tonight's dinner was okay, just abit boring.

There's some interesting conversation between me n chai ying,

hahaa so happy she called me just now.

At least we're still joint together=)

Next week is my study week.

telling myself not to waste this week again,

but study mood is still not on yet.

suddenly feel so upset of it.

Anyway, life is still beautiful to me=)

Sammi Cheng

她很坚强, 好让人心疼。

我支持你!

so random

Nothing special to mention or express here,

just thought of posting something here=)

Wana post something about my birthday,

bt is kind of lazy to upload those photos =X

Someday la, i will definitely post them on someday=)

It's quite late now,

bt the feeling of sleeping doesnt knock my mind

Feel like wana emo abit>.<

lol, i think i'm a bit psychotic liao X)

k la, so boring, very boring today, because i skipped my classes today.

n the weather was so hot these few days =.=

herrhaih..

**

Complicated feelings!

Nothing hurts me but those mixed feelings keep disrupting me,

like i ate something tasteless yet some bitter.

Haih,why us human being need emotions, feelings and thoughts?

err, these make us unique..i know..

but these also complicate everything.

Anyway, pray for me for my final.

Pls ESL, pls dont dissapoint me=(

Gambateh la jing nie, i know u can do it..

:')

The letter

I felt so guilty now.

The offer letter has arrived,

'Congratulations, I am pleased to offer you a place in the following course..'

Yea, very happy.

But the fees are 'awesome'

n it's in $AUD.

I feel like telling my parents,

sorry for not paying attention in class sometimes,

sorry for not really trying my very best in achieving colourful results,

sorry for being selfish all this while.

=(

What do u wish for if everyone owns a wish now?

I wish that everything will not change

from this moment.

I can be ur hero, baby

Being abit notti just now..hehe, u know what i mean=D

Anyway, i love this song.

It triggers all my memories.

好静

讨厌星期五的夜晚，

想找个人说话都没有。

星期五提醒了我，

原来我始终是一个人的。

或许我对寂寞的来临特别敏感吧。

既使在人潮中，

也抵挡不住寂寞的侵袭，

脑袋有说不清的疑惑。

但我知道，

其实我们都寂寞。

唉，我，

跟王力宏一样，

需要人陪。