Mixed feelings

yep..i'm here again.

It's like i will only think of this pity blog when i'm down or emo. I wonder what makes me feel sad in this moment apart from my poor class test n quiz results. In these few days, i found myself non-stop finding something no matter where am i and what i'm doing - targets, a friend, laughters n even myself. It's like i'm kinda lost n trying to adjust my life to the proper style.

What i noticed is that, there's sadness in that person's eyes. I try to figure it out but my mind is reminding me from not being over-concern. Yep, i know i cant do anything too. I think i should eliminate that person from my unconscious mind.=)

There's a movie i wished to watch since a long time- When in Rome . lol but i always don't have the time and chance to watch + can only watch at golden screen cinema=( . I think Yun En is more disappointed than i am. nvm we buy dvd n watch together bah!=D

Anyways, my driving test is around the corner but i'm not nervous actually.hehe. Just hope that i will pass it successfully although i know it's quite hard. I'm imagining my car sliding down from the hill.XD

Thoughts.

This week is the toughest week for me - insufficient sleep, tons of assignments, complicated feelings.. Everything is changing without notices n i'm totally not ready for that. Every night when i'm alone,

I used to think about what kind of stupid thing i had done these few days n i felt myself kinda foolish as well as silly.

I used to think the luck i'm having for the next day- whether it's as usual or bad.

I used to think about my future - am i able to find the right one to spend the rest of our lives.

I used to think that am i going to be a successful accountant/ auditor in the future - decide by how much money can i earned.

I used to check whether is he still there chatting using msn.

I used to think how great it is when i finish all of my assignments.

I used to check my daily horoscope to aware me from making mistakes the next day.

Here are just parts of my thoughts.lol.My brain can never stop thinking whenever i'm alone. That's not healthy i guess. just quite abnormal.=x