=.=

where's my handphone???

变

在不知情的情况下，

好多事情都变了。

至今才真正了解原来一切都很简单明白，

是我想的太梦幻了。

根本不管怎样，变了就是变了，

之前妄想的意义，只会让我觉得我很糟糕。

很想狠狠地巴你

你，

托慢了我生活的节奏。

太好了，你离我远远的。

找一天

找一天，

一定要跟另一半，

不管一切地，

去追寻日落，

太阳的尽头，

彩虹的尽头。

=)

一天痊愈的时间，够吗？

从早上开始，

心情闷闷的，

不想跟任何人说话。

因为回忆里，

又多了一份不想回顾的记忆。

天气灰灰的，

好想现在是2012。

Let it out

Just found out that i'm still the same

cried for silly things, but that's really sensitive to me.

Although i understand why, but i just cant accept it,

I'm sorry if i'm rude, i know this is not the way.

n know wad? i hate myself crying in front of you, it's awful.

thanks google, this is what i checked out:

How to stop yourself from crying:

1. Pinch yourself (Don't pinch so hard that you cry from the pain, though.)

2. Lift your head to the sky

3. Yawn

4. What sometimes helps is just closing your eyes

5. Swallow saliva

6. Turn on some nice music

They're useful. But i wonder how am i going to yawn when i'm crying?

Another one

Kinda down these few days,

i know is emotional flu again.

Trying my best to avoid them

for worsening my day,

but they won at last.

I dont need a listener,

because i dont even know what to say

or what i feel, it's just that

i'm feeling down.

o.O

Craft? :)

Too boring at home,

i found something interesting

to release STRESS!

Guess what can i do with this? :)

Teng Teng!=D

Gnie's bottle=)

I wonder who wana buy my ruler;P

♥

Hi, my love!:)

ya i love myself=)

Conclusion of the day:

holiday makes ppl insane

c me=)!

领悟

我知道，

随着年龄的增长，

人生在不同阶段，

会有不同的领悟。

那在我这个阶段呢？

我不清楚，

只知道现在的我，

很想用力抓住每一份感动，

不想让身边的人

再从我生命中

溜走。

但往往真心想要珍惜的，

却最容易被唾弃，

与之擦肩而过。

等一个人咖啡

昨夜一口气把它看完，

感觉很爽。

不错是不错，

但总觉得太梦幻了，

世上没那么多巧合吧。

但也很喜欢阿拓的朴实与那份热诚。

九把刀说，

玩过拼图的人都知道，

复杂的图形反而容易掌控，

因为每一块都那么奇异，

很快就能知晓它应放置的座标。

但越是简单的图形，

如蔚蓝的天空，茵茵绿地，

却最难拼成。

因每一片都太朴实，单纯，

许久都不会明白上一块跟下一块之间的关系。

还有跟自己的 联系。

一开始就被这句话给吸引。

很想找回起初的自己，

我宁愿什么也不知道，不了解。

有些事情知道太多了，

往往会影响自己起初的决定，

也违背了自己的意愿，

这就是面具的由来。

谢谢委迎的这本书，

我好喜欢。=)

stupid exam :(

ARGGHHHHHH!!!!!

MY ENGLISH EXAM !!

=((((((

Fear

Ok, now i realised that i was stalking just now.

yea i'm a stalker , stalking for old relationship.

glad to see them live lives to the fullest, enjoying times together :)

But nothing seems to change here, i'm still the same ;)

but to be honest, there's some bitter feelings in me

even though i refused to admit that.

bitter as in feeling regretful =x

i know that's nothing to be sad or wondering why,

but i think it's just that i'm lonely sometimes,

just sometimes, luckily :)

Btw, wana share something i really think it's my biggest fear,

and sorry tummy,

i allowed too many butterflies in you.

Exam starts from tomorrow.

=(

Bites

a can of antioxidant lipton ice tea

My econs book

Four pair of Deli wings

A personal hawaiian pan pizza

Sounds not bad?

But it feels bad eating alone.

But once in a while is ok laa.

=)

2.oo, am

Jing Nie is still thinking what can she do now

besides than sleeping, studying and staring the bed.

*O.o*

1.oo, am

I guess i started to miss my friends..

including the one i shouldnt miss.

Just came back from a wedding dinner,

i never like the environment during most of the wedding dinners

I thought the meanings are gone.

It's not just about wishing the newlywed,

but comparing among each other that makes me sick.

But overall tonight's dinner was okay, just abit boring.

There's some interesting conversation between me n chai ying,

hahaa so happy she called me just now.

At least we're still joint together=)

Next week is my study week.

telling myself not to waste this week again,

but study mood is still not on yet.

suddenly feel so upset of it.

Anyway, life is still beautiful to me=)

Sammi Cheng

她很坚强, 好让人心疼。

我支持你!

so random

Nothing special to mention or express here,

just thought of posting something here=)

Wana post something about my birthday,

bt is kind of lazy to upload those photos =X

Someday la, i will definitely post them on someday=)

It's quite late now,

bt the feeling of sleeping doesnt knock my mind

Feel like wana emo abit>.<

lol, i think i'm a bit psychotic liao X)

k la, so boring, very boring today, because i skipped my classes today.

n the weather was so hot these few days =.=

herrhaih..

**

Complicated feelings!

Nothing hurts me but those mixed feelings keep disrupting me,

like i ate something tasteless yet some bitter.

Haih,why us human being need emotions, feelings and thoughts?

err, these make us unique..i know..

but these also complicate everything.

Anyway, pray for me for my final.

Pls ESL, pls dont dissapoint me=(

Gambateh la jing nie, i know u can do it..

:')

The letter

I felt so guilty now.

The offer letter has arrived,

'Congratulations, I am pleased to offer you a place in the following course..'

Yea, very happy.

But the fees are 'awesome'

n it's in $AUD.

I feel like telling my parents,

sorry for not paying attention in class sometimes,

sorry for not really trying my very best in achieving colourful results,

sorry for being selfish all this while.

=(

What do u wish for if everyone owns a wish now?

I wish that everything will not change

from this moment.

I can be ur hero, baby

Being abit notti just now..hehe, u know what i mean=D

Anyway, i love this song.

It triggers all my memories.

好静

讨厌星期五的夜晚，

想找个人说话都没有。

星期五提醒了我，

原来我始终是一个人的。

或许我对寂寞的来临特别敏感吧。

既使在人潮中，

也抵挡不住寂寞的侵袭，

脑袋有说不清的疑惑。

但我知道，

其实我们都寂寞。

唉，我，

跟王力宏一样，

需要人陪。

唯一

這樣的説法，不是不想給對方一個名分，

只是我覺得《情人》這個名詞非常脆弱。

對我來説，我會把對方當成是我的家人，

因爲只要把對方認爲是家人，

你就永遠不用害怕會失去對方，

當然對方也必須和你一樣的想法。

- 類似家人的情人 <无比> -

这篇文章让我有些感触。

对啊，

像家人一样的情人最好了。

既使打打闹闹，

那份关怀，

是不会像过气情人般

轻易被抹去的。

The joyous moment=D

Yes!!!!
yes, exam is over =D
n yes again, final exam is coming=(
Everyone looked so happy after the exam,
especially the three of us,
v were laughing all the way to sunway,
n talking something funny yet not so funny but seems to be so funny at the time.
At the time, after the exam.
=D
Bthe way, i went home with my wet clothes n my broken 'shinny-wetty' shoes.
I met two helpful people who lend their hand to the elder ones
They're so attractive=)
okay, i'm so sleepy.
i think i can have my dinner with my eyes closed.
nite=)!

Crazy for econs, argh!

arghhhhh
i'm drying for econs!!
my mind started to stuck now
i can see many mosquitoes flying in front of me
i doubt if they ever exist
help..
need to wake up early at 5am in the morning
i'm scared i cant recognise myself in the mirror tomorrow
Releases some blurness here will be better
i think so?
i hope tomorrow the econs paper will be burnt by someone, all of it..
yay, then everyone can just go back n sleep.
argh..bye bye, bye bye.

170910

Conclusion of the week:
Bringing problems to bed is not healthy.
Today was really my bad day,
I heard something from my mum that i'm not really wana know.
mayb i just cant understand what's in her mind,
bt it's sad to know about the ugly truth.
haih, i'm so tired la.
i wana have a tight sleep. =(

♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Now i know wad's <3>stands for=)

it's love!

In a relationship,

there's not supposed to be more than 3 person,

that's y it's <3>

aww.

Bending ur head to the left,

it's a love shape =D

aww aww.

I think i'm the last to know these wonderful ones.

Anyway, thanks Wayne!

=)

Wrong decision, Right inspiration=)

I made a wrong decision just now.

I should have followed my dad to the cinema instead of attending my mum's fren's party.

I sat there like a stone the whole night n went to the toilet very frequently.

But it's quite interesting to stare at those aunties and uncles while they're talking to my mum or enjoying their beer. They have amazing expression on their faces !=D

Sitting there, staring at a women who carries a baby boy, i started to think about my future.

Yep i had applied for the courses of early childhood development n planned to pursue my studies in Australia next year. This is a rush decision, from accounting to a totally different course. But i know this is a better choice at least because i dont really like accounting. I love children. I know i have no experience on how to take care of a baby or even know how to carry them. There's lots to learn and trust me, i'm wiling to learn n ready to learn too=) .

But life isn't a bed of roses, there's always unexpected challenges waiting me to overcome them.

I don't know who am i going to meet in the future,

I'm not sure whether i'm able to communicate with those locals or the children due to my language problem,

I don't know is my height suitable to teach those children, or my look? i don't look like a teacher=/

Will i be very lonely there? my heart's praying, no pls dont. =x

I'm really glad that my parents supported me all this while although they buried their love to their children deep in the heart without performing it. I really appreciate to have them in my life. ♥

It's time to sleep now. Wish the future bride tonight live happily ever after with her Fiancé=)

♥ ♥

回忆录

刚从派对回来，

在那我有了很多的感触。

不知道你有没有过这种感觉，

当回忆被掀开来，

里头装满自己不想回顾的过去，

也有不想回想的某个人，

那种心情的起伏。

跟某个人失去联络了，

突然听别人提起他的现状，

而且原来我们的距离不遥远，

比我想象的还要近很多。

虽然已经过去，

但那参杂着快乐与尴尬的回忆，

是不能轻易被抹去的。

好想有一天，

亲自问问你，

朋友，你还好吗？

我还蛮挂念你。

你是如何看待我们的过去呢?

就这样。

=)

思绪

人的思想可以很恐怖，你在想什么，没有人会知道。

这全靠自己的控制能力，自己平时储蓄的经验也可派上用场。

思想，可以是很负面的，也可以是超乎想象的，又或者是很情绪化的。

我觉得我自己的控制能力不是很好，也可用糟糕来形容，还在学习的过程中。

控制不了自己会想太多，而且大多是极负面，悲观的。

常会想别人或许跟我一样，还是本来就应该这样，那我的思想应该算是正常的。

但为何最终躲在自己思想圈套的还是我。

还是他们控制能力好，可掩饰心里的焦虑呢？

这个还需要仔细探讨，希望找到答案。

电话记

它出现了。

原来它一直在我身旁。

我妈 "帮" 我收着。

电话失踪了

电话，你在哪里？

快出来，别吓我。

L-O-V-E

最近我觉得除了亲情与友情以外，

爱情这两个字眼似乎离我的生命越来越远了。

不是说一定要拥有，但已忘了其滋味。

有情人时，常会在想自己单身多好，

跟另一半吵架时，在想自己找来的麻烦，

都在想自己失去了好多属于自己的时间，

但仍珍惜有他陪伴的时光。

单身一人时，常会羡慕别人有个伴。

与朋友到一些特别的场所，会幻想带男朋友来得情景。

得空没事做时， 脑海转着能为另一半编制的惊喜。

但仍喜欢没被束缚的日子。

常在想，两者哪个好?

单身? 孤单了点。。

恋人? 问题的来源。。

最后关键在于是否遇见我要的他，

遇见了是否可接纳对方呢？

接纳了对方，是否能保证爱的素质呢?

想想，自己有单身一辈子的潜质，而且还蛮高一下咯。

Grown UPS!

Haha!

This is the definite response i think from everyone who watched this movie=D

It's a meaningful movie actually n i like the relationship between the 5 guys.

They are all so special individuals, have their own personality characteristic

( although most of them are weird),

Most of all,

they are SO funny=DD

重来

我好像又失去某样东西了，

而且是生命中珍藏的一部份。

就让他如此吧，

反正意义早已被带走了。

Yea. It's me again.

But with a different mood.

Told u i have mood swings ryte? ;)

n maybe u r right,

that's what a typical teenage will encounter

=)

Have been reading the novel for the whole night yesterday

Felt a sense of satisfaction

Not sure whether it's because of the romantic scenery that struck me,

or just because i almost finish reading the novel.

'I wake every day knowing that i'm lucky to have married her.'

The author mentioned it in the acknowledgments.

That's quite meaningful to me as

even not many couples feel lucky to have each other nowadays

Tomorrow's maths exam

and i'm not in mood to study=)

maybe showering for half an hour may work?

=)

Shaping

Exam's coming. n y am i here?

To release some toxic here.

I think i'm a completely unhealthy person.

i usually stay late till midnight,

i usually eat whatever i want,

i usually lazy in taking out my lens,

i usually waste my time doing something else,

i usually feel depressed,

i usually think of something that dont make any sense,

i usually feel pain on my neck,

i usually feel like someone's is following me behind,

i usually have mood swings,

i usually feel bad about myself,

i usually type this kind of blog,

i usually i usually

Okay,

Back to exam.

Back to reality.

=)

这样的感觉

突然，

有种感觉突袭了我。

我不知它从何处，

也不知它为何来访，

我只知道它完全占据了我的思想。

寻找，

不停地思索这莫名地不安，

即使在人群中，

我也无法逃脱。

我发现自己地改变

但我不喜欢这样的我。

从来不喜欢孤单的我，

竟然独自逛了五个小时。

而我，

我真的不知道自己要的是什么。

连正在写这的心情，

也复杂得无法形容。

不是悲伤，

而是不安。

It's question time!=D

Q: Can we see the moon at night when we are in an aeroplane?

Q: Countries such as Haiti which suffered from earthquake, will the country claim for the insurance they bought?

p/s: Can tell me if u know the ans? *curious*=)

我觉得我最近很像它。

World of lies

i just came back from the workshop just now

n i'm kinda shock of what i had heard from there

n kind of depressed too

We are blind

have u ever think that our world is actually

controlled by someone or something evil?

believe it or not

yes. n they are IILUMINATI.

n most of the wealthy or successful people knows THEIR rules.

Coca-cola?Mc Donald?

or our favourite celebrities

Lady Gaga? Mariah Carey?or even Micheal Jackson?

My heart sank when i realised all of the ugly truth

really..

Cant imagine that they were tortured so badly

in order to be mind controlled

n now i finally know why there's always a kind of deep sadness in MJ eyes

What i really cant accept is that

they are brain washing our early generation

the song of Bunny?omg..that's creeping

the reversed song of Paparazzi is still running in my mind

please, please dont do that to us human being

i believe that our inner nature is good

so please dont try to pollute us

n leave us alone!

As u said,

we are the minority who realised the ugly truth

not only heard about but REALISED

although it's really not much that i can do

but,

at least i knew about it

i knew what's going on

n i choose to believe it

Thinking of there's a possibility that they will kill me

just because i mentioned IILUMINATI here

but i dont really care

as u said again,

evil will never beat down the angels

Anyway,

Caleb, really thanks for sharing to us=)

u let me know about the world that full of LIES.

it's time for us people to awake now.

猜猜

有个朋友曾经告诉过我，

她认为喜欢单色的人，

思想会比喜欢多种颜色搭配一起的人来得复杂。

想了，我认同她的说法。

但应该不能反映在每一个人身上吧。

这样想法的来源，

我想是因为杂乱复杂的颜色给人一种不熟的感觉？

不熟 是指思想不成熟，没想太多的人。

当然，这只是我的猜测。

我开始想，

留长发的人 应该是缺乏安全感。

当不敢或不想面对他人时，

长发成了躲避的处所。

喜欢睡觉的人 应该是与世无争的人。

明知这会比别人浪费的时间来的多，

就是要沉睡在自己的世界里

才会感到满足。

喜欢看鬼戏的人 应该是比较独立的人。

害怕是人的本能，

但他们却能安抚心情并控制杂念，

应该算是有自制能力的人吧。

这只是猜测，事实上我也不知道。

Secret =l

This is a random post

some thoughts popped in my mind again

something interesting~=)

xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Everyone have their own secret.

I wish that i can have the aladdin genie with me

helps to make my dreams come true

n this will be one of my secret

I wish that i can communicate with ghosts

n help them to pass messages to their family members

n this will be one of my secret

I wish that i am one of those who has magic power

n i can become invisible

(or have a pair of secret wings, but i have Acrophobia)

so that i can go everywhere i wanted to go

n this will be one of my secret

I wish that i'm a mind reader

so that i can know what others are thinking

coz guessing is kinda annoying

n this will be one of my secret

=)

secret secret secret

dreaming again.

=D

Realised .

Some thoughts are turning in my mind now.

Life incidents may help a person understand him/herself more .

I started to think that

sometimes i refused to admit even though it's my fault

Even to myself

i want to make myself feel better

or maybe avoid being guilty .

Different kinds of excuses appearing in my mind

n i just need to choose the one which sounds reasonable

to cover up the feelings of guilty to myself n others .

n in fact, i know i'm running away from these problems

n they will not be solved until i face them properly

n i'll have no improvement .

Only if i accept and able to dissolve it,

means without feeling uncomfortable when the problem being revealed again,

i'll live life without burdens of hiding my true feelings .

Being quite emo in these few weeks,

n i realised that some of my friends was also under pressure too

some of them because of exams

some of them dont know why they are so unlucky

some of them dont know which to decide n suits them more

some of them thinking why they are so careless

some of them want to have extra time

...

n i think i have something to worry about too now

i need to choose my study path before it's too late.

Accounting? or childhood development?

stable or risky?

employed or jobless.

Time to survey=)

1 August 2010

Happy Birthday=)

u 're 19 now,

n we're so lucky to have the chance to celebrate with u,

since u're going back to perth soon.

I can see happiness in mum's eyes,

n our dad's too^^

dad wakes up earlier

mum keeps asking where to celebrate

even my grandma called us to celebrate together

everyone is looking forward to it=)

Happy birthday kason!

Can i shout out how i feel now?

i need someone to talk to me now.

someone who able to calm me down,

someone who listen to me without biases,

just listen to me without complicated expressions,

"jkihsnjgisgib uhlkwougqj huwqjndljnq nuqhwudjmqdj iqw ohdql"

i'm started to talk to the air.

i'm acting so damn weird now.

??

Tonight, my heart told me that i had done a mistake in my life.

n it keeps yelling, jing nie, u stupid thing!

i found out that i always do things without thinking it's consequences.

not that i'm not thinking much, i think i'm thinking too much sometimes.

bt in return i embarrassed myself.

i knew that regret cant help on anything,

but help...

i'm drowning in the feeling of regretting..

my mind is turning n turning now.

i turned off all my lights to feel secured.

i hided inside the blanket to help me feels better.

i'm so weird.

Tiring

Exam exam exam.

Everyday exam..

It's challenging bt it's also tiring.

Tiring of studying hard in the midnight

Tiring of everyday's packed schedule

Tiring of doing never ending assignments

Tiring of facing the anxiety before the exam

Tiring of planning what to do for every second

Tiring of waking up so early in the morning

Tiring of finishing loads of trial papers

Tiring of sitting in the speeding bus

Tiring of finding my ID in my bag

Tiring of losing my pendrive before presentation

Tiring of deciding what to eat every afternoon

Tiring of tiring..

But i think i will miss these tiring moments when different things came to my life.

It's only one year n now left only about 3 months. Time flies.

As the conclusion of suffering from sickness these few days,

i have 95% confident to say that..

+

=

Sore throat,

fever,

and

maybe flu.

...Err, therefore this combination is completely unacceptable.

Beware of these food my friends..

Don't fall sick because of these delicious food!=D

Aww`

vandalism?

San drew this on me!

So neat=D

LOVE this damn much..

Those little lovies cut by Elie Bieber=)

p/s: life is so boring,

i think i need a change.

=]