1 August 2010

Happy Birthday=)

u 're 19 now,

n we're so lucky to have the chance to celebrate with u,

since u're going back to perth soon.

I can see happiness in mum's eyes,

n our dad's too^^

dad wakes up earlier

mum keeps asking where to celebrate

even my grandma called us to celebrate together

everyone is looking forward to it=)

Happy birthday kason!

Can i shout out how i feel now?

i need someone to talk to me now.

someone who able to calm me down,

someone who listen to me without biases,

just listen to me without complicated expressions,

"jkihsnjgisgib uhlkwougqj huwqjndljnq nuqhwudjmqdj iqw ohdql"

i'm started to talk to the air.

i'm acting so damn weird now.

??

Tonight, my heart told me that i had done a mistake in my life.

n it keeps yelling, jing nie, u stupid thing!

i found out that i always do things without thinking it's consequences.

not that i'm not thinking much, i think i'm thinking too much sometimes.

bt in return i embarrassed myself.

i knew that regret cant help on anything,

but help...

i'm drowning in the feeling of regretting..

my mind is turning n turning now.

i turned off all my lights to feel secured.

i hided inside the blanket to help me feels better.

i'm so weird.

Tiring

Exam exam exam.

Everyday exam..

It's challenging bt it's also tiring.

Tiring of studying hard in the midnight

Tiring of everyday's packed schedule

Tiring of doing never ending assignments

Tiring of facing the anxiety before the exam

Tiring of planning what to do for every second

Tiring of waking up so early in the morning

Tiring of finishing loads of trial papers

Tiring of sitting in the speeding bus

Tiring of finding my ID in my bag

Tiring of losing my pendrive before presentation

Tiring of deciding what to eat every afternoon

Tiring of tiring..

But i think i will miss these tiring moments when different things came to my life.

It's only one year n now left only about 3 months. Time flies.

As the conclusion of suffering from sickness these few days,

i have 95% confident to say that..

+

=

Sore throat,

fever,

and

maybe flu.

...Err, therefore this combination is completely unacceptable.

Beware of these food my friends..

Don't fall sick because of these delicious food!=D

Aww`

vandalism?

San drew this on me!

So neat=D

LOVE this damn much..

Those little lovies cut by Elie Bieber=)

p/s: life is so boring,

i think i need a change.

=]

' I had an X-ray done today,

and they found you in my heart

The doctor said if they took you out,

I would die,

because i could not live without you!!!

Give this heart<3

in 2010 n forever more. . . '

I received this msg today

they (the words) made me happy

How sweet=)

flu, please go away=(

I realized about something yesterday,

something i thought i already gt used to it.

But when u told me about it,

i can feel that my heart was yelling.

These days i cant escape from questioning myself,

because i feel there's emptiness deep inside my heart.

n i think these feelings is only the 'emotional flu'

n i know i'll recover very soon.

=)

who r u?

i'm a lost person

at least for now.